I went back to 1 in 10 today, it is a LGBTQ group for youth. I have not been since last year and I got a chance to talk with some of the people and they seemed alot more educated on the transgender topic and it was really awesome it made me feel a whole lot more accepted and comfortable there. That is all for now!

Yes today i finally got a new jacket after, well lets just say too long. I got a great deal too, I paid $20.00 and it was originally $80.00!!! It is super sweet and very warm (not that it needs to be here in AZ). But it is also a size larger so it will hide the things that need to be hidden. My Ex's family saw my myspace today and saw that it said male as the gender and i guess they called his mom and he had to explain to them what was going on. So I guess they dont like me very much anymore but atleast he is an ex now. As some of you may know my new years resolution this year is to come out to my immediate family. This is where I am stuck . . . my idea right now is to wait until I move out then just leave a letter explaining everything and what I plan on doing. Idk if that is right tho, am I being a wimp?!?! I just dont know if I would be able to handle their reactions right away, I want to be able to give them time so they are not freaking out on me and we can talk about if rationally. Well here are some pics of me and my new chaqueta

Current Location: Mi Casa
Current Music: Nada

I know I have been out of the picture for a while. But I am okay i just went through some stuff with my now exboyfriend. I have started coming out to more and more of my friends. I have yet to come out to my family but i think my mom has figured it out already. My goal for this year is to come out to my immediate family and right now I am trying to figure out the best way for me to do so. IDK if I should write a letter, or talk face to face? I am currently still living at home trying to save some money to move out. I want to make some more connections within the transgender community and gain some support. I am having an issue right now on my name . . . My birthname and current name is Abby. I like my name and I just cant imagine myself going by a different name. I am trying to get some opinions on some of the names I have thought of for myself. I have a couple of names that I can see myself going by  . . . Ezra, Erik, Ryan, or Zak. IDK tho I will have to take a poll. Well that is it for now just sortof making another intro. PEACE!

Current Location: Gilbert
Current Music: humming of the computer

So me and my boyfriend have been arguing alot about me being trans, and i love him but i want to get on T as soon as a turn 18 and hopefully top surgery. he says that he wants me to be happy but i cant be happy until i can be who i am on the outside, a man. I cant break up with him cuz i am too much of a pussy i guess and i know how it feels to get my heart broken and i never want to do that to him, but then again what can i do, i am a 17 year old boy stuck in a girls body, afraid to lose everyone but dont want to lie to myself or anyone any longer. I still havent come out to really anyone and i need to but i just cant find the balls to do it (no pun intended). i have been going to 1 in 10 these past couple weeks and i love it. everyone accepts me for who i am, a boy, but then i go home and get a reality check that not everyone is this understanding. i just dont know what to do.  

Current Location: mi casa
Current Music: humphree the rat eating

 i am a 17 year old ftm living in az. i recently just came out to my boyfriend and some of my closest friends. My boyfriend is okay with it but doesnt want me to go any further with the transformation (aka sex change). i am kind of saddened by that but its not like i have the money or the courage to go through something like that anyway. my boyfriend says he doesnt care but i know that it gets to him sometimes and he doesnt know what to do, since he doesnt know very much about it. sometimes i can tell he gets sad when i say certain things but i just cant hide it anymore. i dont think i will ever come out to my mom or dad, they would be so hurt and i wouldnt want to do that to them. well the only thing i guess i can do is to try to push it to the back of my mind for another day so i wont be depressed for yet another day. oh well this is my life i am just gonna have to live it the best way that i know how!

Current Location: home
Current Music: humming of the computer